*~[~MY LIFE~]~*

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

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suddenly i just realise tat perhaps we are really fragile.
well today was a bad day.
lucky there is only 3 hours 10mins more to go.

[美丽的神话]

梦中的人熟悉的脸孔
你是我守候的温柔
就算泪水淹没天地
我不会放手,每一刻孤独的承受
只因我曾许下承诺
你我之间熟悉的感动
爱就要苏醒
万世沧桑唯有爱是永远的神话
潮起潮落始终不悔真爱的相约
几番若痛的纠缠多少黑夜掐扎
紧握双手让我和你再也不离分
枕上雪冰封的爱恋
真心相摇篮才能融解
风中摇曳炉上的火
不灭亦不休
等待花开春去春又来
无情岁月笑我痴狂
心如钢铁任世界荒芜
思念永相随
悲欢负月唯有爱是永远的神话
谁都没有遗忘古老,古老的誓言
你的泪水化为漫天飞舞的彩蝶
爱是翼下之风两心相随自在飞
你就是我心中唯一美丽的神话

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, September 28, 2005|

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Monday, September 26, 2005

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well got back some of my prelim papers..
kinda disappointed for GP and math..
though i noe tat tis time my math is not gonna score well due to some unforeseen circumstances.
haiz.
shouldn't be so silly.
caught the myth today..
quite nice la actually..
walk around in town den go home.
well but, no matter how much i walked,
it still just can't turn my mood over..
hey gals..
guess i'm going to MIA again..
u guys better take care man..
i'm going to fight the battle of my life.

[ V O N ] |Monday, September 26, 2005|

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Friday, September 23, 2005

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张敬轩断点

静静的陪你走了好远好远
连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
看着我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条旧路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延
我转过我的脸不让你看见
深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
过完了今天就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍

我吻过你的脸
你双手曾在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼
我总是可以看见失信的诺言全部都会实现
我吻过你的脸
(虽然)你不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过的好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前在听见你的蜜语甜言

[ V O N ] |Friday, September 23, 2005|

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Thursday, September 22, 2005

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suddenly just look out the window..
suddenly realise the beauty of the night.
wondering how many do really look out to the night.
the lights of singapore just make me smile.
the scent of air resulted from a raining night makes me want for more.
a beautifu night, with songs around me and a simple scenary just make me realise actually being simple is the best thing on earth.
everything just seems be not important at all..
learn to put down everything, all burdens,all hate.
and enjoy the beauty of life.
feeling so lucky to be able to appreciate the beauty of simple night.

Air Supply - Goodbye
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life

(Chorus)
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't leave a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

(Chorus) You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say good-bye

[ V O N ] |Thursday, September 22, 2005|

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Monday, September 19, 2005

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yoz prelim finally is over!

有人说过当一对情人分手得时候，
天上就会有一颗星星因此而掉落。
希望我们这颗星星不只不会掉落还会永远是天上最闪耀的一颗星。

[ V O N ] |Monday, September 19, 2005|

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Saturday, September 17, 2005

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hmm just came back home after watching xue lang hu..
tonight is a memorable nite.
will never forget tonight tis life time.
he and me just seems so near.
and he seems so real.
never once see him in real life b4.
my dream finally comes true.
jackey cheung is just simply amazing.
his talent make him look so smart.
and his vocal..
oh my god!!
rush to catch the last train.
meet tis ang moh damn funny.
he was like laughing at me when i was running and say like saying ' hurry up....!!'
haha well quite lucky today got a mercedas cab to send mi to indoor stadium.
jacky cheung!!
i just simply love u..
and u rox big time!
and ur xue lang hu!!
promise to go for ur concert man!
thou the food is damn exp.
and manage to irritate a few ppl coz they can't go!!
AI SHI YONG HENG!

[ V O N ] |Saturday, September 17, 2005|

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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

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hmm suppose to meet dy to have a puff today.
but was in uniform so.. the thing was cancelled.
flung my prelim c.math.

suddenly realise actually my blogskin damn suitable for me now.
or maybe i jus dunno how to treasure it when i was with him.
well perhaps tis is the long time i gonna blog about him.
so all those tat didn't noe about tis.. read it once and stop asking me anymore.
or rather maybe tis is for him the last time.
but somehow i hope tat he wun see,
because i dun wan to affect him anymore.
tat is why after a few day den i say about all this thing.
perhaps tis the last time i gonna cry for him.
or i wish this is the last time.
coz now, he dun need me to do tat anymore.
there's another gal to share his happiness and saddness with him.
to cry with him and to smile with him.

tat day, i remembered i asked u.
'why the one i love wasn't u, and why the one u love wasn't me?'
seeing him cry so badly for love, i really just feel like hugging him and tell him, dun cry, i dun allow u to cry...
seeing him so sad definitely pains my heart.
tat's how we started off..
i thought he was really the one for me.
the one tat makes me settled down.
but now i guess everyone noe the ending.
ya perhaps tis is really the best ending for him..
but definitely not for me.

he will never noe tat when he is smiling..
i am crying..
he will never noe how hard i cry every nite for him.
he will never noe how long my heart stop when i realise he love another gal.
how hurt i am when i noe his world is no longer for me.
i can't tell him..
except to give my blessing to the gal and him.
he will never noe how much i miss him.
he will never noe how much he hurt me..
he will never noe how much i wanted to hug him.
he will never..
becoz i will never never tell him.
i will give him a peaceful live with his gal.
the gal tat can give him the best memories.
i dun wan to let him noe, i dun wan to affect him.
i wun let him noe how much i love him.
as long as he is really happy now, i will give up.
i dun wan to noe whu is tat gal.
but i just simply can't stop thinking about him and the gal.
how happy he is now..
how lucky the gal is now.

a month ago,
i felt like i was a princess..
living in his world.
being showered by his love.
i thought all my tears was paid off.
he promise me he will be there.
he make mi feel so xinfu.
he make me realise he really everything i need to makes my life goes on.
the thought of being with him is just so sweet and simple.

a week ago.
he left me again.
he is happily attached with another gal.
well tis end our almost 2 year r.s

i really can imagine how nice he is to the girl now.
hope the gal realise.
he promise tat he will not repeat history by having another gal soon after we break like my ex.
but he broke it.
perhaps tat time he really mean it ba..
but not now.
i will never blame him.
coz i dunno how to hate him.
all the things he did hurt me.
but can never make me hate him.

when we are back the second time,
i think tat he really did tried his best to love me.
but just tat maybe he only tried 50% coz another half of his heart had changed.
maybe had fly to another gal.

i dunno when all these will end.
perhaps till the day i become strenghtless.
everyday i imgaine that he is living his life so happily with the one he love,
i feel happy for him.
sad for not being the one.
his laughter, his warmth still seems so familiar to me.
but every happy memories we shared before makes my heart shattered.
guess.. it gonna be a history.
tot he is the one tat will never want to see me sad,
tot he will be the one tat will make me feel so xin fu
but his smile will not be for me anymore.
perhaps he is really tired.
perhaps i should just back out.
at least i noe tat he is really happy now.
with his life revolving around another gal now.
holding her hands, hugging her.
tellin her how much he misses her during work,
telling her tat how much he love her and need her.
what can i do?
except to cry and leave?
he will never care about how i feel anymore coz i am really not his anything.
if one day i am blind,
maybe i will not think so much.
coz i will not see his shadow everywhere i go.

thou i really hate to let go,
u wana noe how much i love him now,
my love can make me cut my hair short.
a word from him, saying he like gal with short hair,
i'll cut my hair short.
but since he is with the gal he love now,
i will let go..
perhaps his smile is more important den any of my tears i shed.
perhaps tis is the reason, tat makes me let go.

tat time u ask me how come i lose wt.
told u tat coz i ate very little.
but the truth is, i really can't eat.
becoz all i noe is cry and cry and cry.
yea i am a cry baby.
a cry baby tat will only smile in front of u.

maybe i just couldn't make u smile.
hope tat she is the one tat are capable to make u smile everyday.
i will not say i miss u.
becoz u will not noe.
from 28/07 to 21/08 i really feel like a fairytale.
walking home with u.
having lunch with u.
walking around with u.
pretending tat i dun wan to be with u.
looking at u.
watching movie with u..
recalling our fav place in esplanade,
remembering our fav eeyore and grandchildren...
having the first bouquet of blue roses from u..
being mistaken for mrs vincent?
all this simple stuff just make mi feel so so fortunate to have u around.
just make me smile and cry quite i can never experiance it again.
deep in me, really wants to tell u how much i really can't lose u.
but who will understand tat becoz i love u,
i keep surpress my feeling.
coz i'm scare to lose u again.
i'm scare to hold u too tight.
i'm scare to pressure u.
i'm scare to see u leaving me again.
but in the end all my fear happen.
i really afraid to say all these to u,
coz i scare i scare u off.
so i choose to give u freedom.
to do what u wants to do.
but no matter what,
thanks for making my fairytale to happen in real life.
though now i finally realise fairytale dun last long.
maybe the more serious one is in the r.s, one will get hurt more easily to get hurt ba..
at least now only one party is crying for this r.s not both.
maybe tis r.s really mean nothing to u, not a single value left.
but to me, it means alot alot.

now, perhaps treating the gal well is ur only resposibilty.
all i hope is maybe when u are free,
when u have nothing else better to do,
u will think of me for a little while.
just a little while,
as long as i noe u still remember tat i exist,
and once was a special gal to u,
i'm already contented.
perhaps even by wanting u to do it,
i am being selfish.

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单

还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你
还是害怕的不经意听见你的消息
然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰
当拥有已经是失去

还是害怕一个人时就很难忘记
还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定
然而当爱最后的出口是分离

终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
我真的懂你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
别再看着我说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂

回忆很多
你的影子也会充满我生活
抱紧我
再抱紧我
这一份感动
请你让我留在胸口
或许这是最好的结果
现在分手总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心
你永远不了解

静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱的太多痴心绝对

自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞

我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
我想我可以假装不曾爱过

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, September 14, 2005|

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Saturday, September 10, 2005

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prelim sucks.
life sucks.
study study study my ass la.. haha

[ V O N ] |Saturday, September 10, 2005|

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Saturday, September 03, 2005

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met up with char just now.
unable to meet up with animal farm today.

[ V O N ] |Saturday, September 03, 2005|

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