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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

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hmmm math exam sucks..
or rather i think i will flung again!!
tat stupid guy seating diagonally opposite keep shaking and shaking...!!
is like what the hell?
throughout the whole exam, i am super distracted lo!!
is like shake shake shake..
nearly crush a paper and throw there..
somemore shake two leg!!
ARGHH!!!!!
if he is good looking i still don't mind lo..
but nvm
well.. so sad gotto go for math intensive tuition.
lucky lover is gng with me!! and vina too!!
haha...
hmmm well i guess ytd we really ended our r.s already.
i told u i will let u go.
knowing that u have feeling for another girl already.
i guess she should be very very fortunate ba.
don't hurt her ok..
because u will never noe how much u really love that person till one day u lose him/her.
never never hurt the one u love.
i give u my blessing..
no matter where u are.. u must be happy ok? promise me.
just remember that somewhere in this world,
somebody is willing to exchange for ur happiness with anything...
convert all our past memories together to a happy one.
be it a sad one or an unpleasant one.
change all those to a sweet one.
maybe one day when u think of it, it will lit up ur day.
it will at least make a smile.
i really hope to choose to leave u with beautiful memories of me..
instead of bad memories.
now, i just hope that u are happy everyday.. with a new girl in ur life..
ur memories and smile will always stay with me.
deep down in my heart.
perhaps soon one day, we can really become good friends again..
just like the past..
i will learn.
learn to let u go.
to see u soar like eagle..
to see u find ur own happiness.
may u and ur girl last forever.

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, June 29, 2005|

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Monday, June 27, 2005

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hmm was listening to 933 just now ..
heard about other people's problem..
she lost her husband..
her husband met with an accident.
enter everyone's dream except hers.
maybe he doesn't want to see her feel sad, maybe he doesn't know how to face her.
but deep in her, she wanted to see him so much.
compare to that story,
i guess i am much better off.
at least the one i love didn't leave the earth..
but he lied to me..
i guess he will never know how much he hurts me by lying to me.
am i expecting too much of u when i hope you will just reveal ur true feeling to me?
am i expecting too much of you when i just want u to be urself when u are with me?
actually i wanted to tell him so much that i will let him go ytd.
but he didn't give me a chance.
since he don't love me already,
den i think let him go right?
no matter how much i love him.
maybe i am holding onto him too tight already..
maybe it's better to be friend ba..
maybe one day i will make a quiet exit.
i will definitely not force him to come to me.
we started off simply..
perhaps we should end simply too..
let me do the job of crying, just to make u feel better.
maybe i will just stay in a quiet corner to ensure u that i'm there for u no matter what.
when i tok to min zhi today,
she make me realise that maybe all this is retribution for me.
maybe in the past i really hurt too many people already..
so now i shall have a taste of my own medicine.
and this time i really got the feeling of getting hurt so much by the one i love.
but i will never never force u back.
i will let u have your freedom..
to do whatever you want..
to let u be with any girl u like.
i will let u go..
if u dun wan me to enter your life, i will definitly stay away.
be it i need to use whatever methods to stay away.
maybe when u love a person, u will use all the love u have for him to make him happy.
sometimes when i hear about ' ai ren is tong ku, bei ai shi xin fu'
i don't really agree coz when u love a person, when u see him just care for u a little bit,
u will be very very happy already..
perhaps this is just a xiao xin fu u can get in exchange for ur love..
but he took away my least bit of happiness already.
he promise not to do that at first..
but he broke his promise again..
time and time again he break all his promise to me.
i dunno why he wana do that.
if he meant to destory my life,
if he meant to take away all my happiness,
or let happiness to disappear in my life,
he have suceeded.
watching the 10pm show now.
it seems like all the guys in the show are the one that always try so hard to be with the one they love.
girls are always seating there waiting for things to happen.
but me, i fought so hard.
and in exchange, i lost my least bit of happiness.
the guy that i love, decided to move back.
he forget to bring back my happiness after he went to hk.
or rather he don't love me anymore already.
that's why he can bear to see me in this state.
that's why he don't want to come back.
ya i know i gotto to answer for my own action.
no matter what the least happiness he given me during the past few weeks i really appreciate it a lot.
i really feel so so xin fu during the past few weeks.
i never regret being with you.
thank you for all the memories.
even if u accompany me just for the sole purpose of not to hurt me.
i dunno how to stop loving you,
and i am sure u also cannot stop me from doing that.
but i have lost the battle.
because i have allow u to stop loving me without me even noticing that.
maybe one yr and eight mths r.s really doesn't mean anything to u.
maybe in your heart, i have lost all my value.
tomorrow is a new day, a new day without u just seems to be so uncertain.
so insecure.
i guess maybe one day, when i look back,all my memories about u will be the sweetest of all.
loving you is never a burden for me.. but a happiness.
but i am just not that fortunate to be allow to stay by ur side anymore.
but luckily, i learned about treasuring all the times we spent together during june.
because everyday i am so scare that i will lose you the next day.
so during our past meeting, i tried my best to remember u in every way.
so that if the worst happen, i still have something to remember of u.
perhaps it is that thing that will allows me to carry on with my life.
since i can no longer enjoy ur love for me anymore...
i'm just not that fortunate..
i understand.
thanks for all the hugs and kisses u given me..
it's forever sweet in my heart.
u might be able to take away my everything, but u can never take away my love for u.
because i love u, i will let u go..
let u go to where ever place u want to.

[ V O N ] |Monday, June 27, 2005|

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Friday, June 17, 2005

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yoz ytd ghost train wasn't realli nice..
got a new ear piece coz maybe tat ear piece beyond repair?
haha.. tot of gng heeren to buy ear ring de.. but no time..
today also no time..
:(
watch ice princess with rui,evon and delia today....
was toking about our past 'arcade life' with rui today..
damn funny la..
and i guess is quite fun la about the chatting session about our past.
or rather our past lifestyle also quite fun?
quite miss the time alot too..
of coz tok about sec sch life... all those sleeping and toking nonsense in class..
hee..
well evon and delia was like laughing throughout?
or rather we are rather entertaining?
haha...
wah anyway tat show rox manz..
ice skating rox too..
rui so u believe in my taste anot now?
haha..
guess wad?
went to play DDR today!!!
rui and i was like panting like hell..
guess we are really old...!!
thou we didn't fail la..
ate pasta mania..
or rather they see me eat pasta mania?
took prints..
our second time!!
haha..
went to meet pearly for mini dinner at hougang mall..
hmm... tok about alot of things in the past...
and it's kinda like fun?
or rather very memorable..
tok for about 2 hrs.
have lots of laughter and sharing session..
hmmmm nice meet up!
den go home watch Tv!!
it's tv time!!

[ V O N ] |Friday, June 17, 2005|

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

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yoz just back from garfield birthday celebration..
haha well thou it kinda early but i hope everyone enjoy themselves today..
hmm... was quite sway today..
but guess i shan't repeat why am i sway..
it not more sway..
haha well consume a drink tat cost $12.20?
peeps i guess u noe wad am i refering to la!!!
ate apple strudel after tat..
took some pic..
tot of going to the ice place..
but guess also dun have money to play so din go...
roam around in bugis..
and the neo's machine cheat garfield money..!
haha den somemore not enough time to choose wad pic we wanted..
ARGHHHHHHH
so in the end like only can make do with wad we have..
haiz..
well han irritates me today!!

[ V O N ] |Saturday, June 11, 2005|

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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

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hmmm suppose to take blood test today.
but in the end the doctor decided to make me take vitamin a instead.
went college after tat to return my library books.
watch hitchiker's guide to the galaxy with vet..
oh man i fall in love with marvin..
tat little round robert..
he is just so so so adorable...!
ate my prata saugage today!!
hmm...
got a purplish blue rattan bag for myself today..
oh ya cine nachos sucks.. or to be specific the cheese sucks!
haha well i realise lido mickey store is the same as the one in bugis!
anyway saw ann kok at top shop today!

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, June 08, 2005|

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Monday, June 06, 2005

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yoz went school again..
but at least it's the last time i gonna get back school during the hols.
but the prob is i forget to return my storybook today......!!
so tml might be rolling back to school to return those troublesome books!!
well went to watch monster-in-law with garfield today..
b4 went to eat pasta mania again.. with kim, han and garfield!!
saw delia there..
at first i was like this person look familiar!!
den she started smiling at me!
den i realise it's delia!
wHAAHa so long never see her le..
getting prettier too..
hmmm well walk awhile in bishan..
den get to ps for the movie..
tat stupid gv person treat me and gar transparent la..
feel like slapping him..
well the 'jeeper jeeper' auntie serve us today again!!
whAHa went to shop after that..
den got a BLUE candy floss..
but the taste of it quite sucky thou!
tried to be nice to help garfield loss some weigh by eatin her nachos?
haha well she is nice too!!
the show is damn funny la.
totally enjoyed tat!!
wHAHAHAAa...
got a pair of earrings today!
well oh yeah!! my neighbour file a complain about me today!!
wHAAHAa...
coz ytd i tok too loud on the phone late at night!!
keke..
opps!

[ V O N ] |Monday, June 06, 2005|

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Sunday, June 05, 2005

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yoz ytd was a tiring day!
woke up at 9am or rather kana pull up at tat time to go dad's office.
to help him do some contract thing in chinese.
and know what?
his customer is super rich la..
toking to them make me so gan jiong..
uncle still say that although they are old but they have a son!!!
oh gosh!! like tat also can ah.. but they are taiwanese!
but from the way they portray themselve i also noe tat they are super well to do..
because tat deal cost a huge amount of money..
convert to sing dollar is about a million plus plus..
tat tai tai still ask me go taiwan find her?
provided her son brings me around!
haha..
went to meet turtle after tat..
went to bugis to see the mickey mouse store over there..
well it's below my expectation..
as in the things over there is quite limited..
walk to suntec from there.
well bought two bras..
wHAHA
opps!
den went to suntec musical fountain..
waH it has been so long that i went there
chat for quite a long time with turtle..
took 70 home..
saw yvette..
but she didn't see me..
dunno she is blind or wad?
coz i am just like seating very near her..
turtle and i was like guessing is the guy beside her her bf.
so we were quite excited throughout that journey hoping we are not being discovered!!
hahaa and indeed she didn't see us!!
wHAHAHAA..
den we follow her and tat guy home..
den when they hold hand..
we was like AWWWWWW...
hahaa..
well she finally discover me after i make myself visible at the lift..
think she was quite shock la..
i am shock too.. a gal tat hated guys so much have a bf now!!
hahaa

[ V O N ] |Sunday, June 05, 2005|

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Friday, June 03, 2005

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yoz today is a weird weird day for me!
haha..
went to meet tat idiot jack today..
somemore still raining la..
den is like got quite drench and he is late..
whahhaa..
haha the best thing is like at least we was quite bored la..
den after we spend our money at arcade den he say very noisy wana go some place tat is quiet.
so we went to times bookshop looking around aimlessly..
den i was like very hungry?
den i told him tat i wana EAT!!
wHAHAhaa
decided to eat long john after quite long..
den is like in long john i realise i lost my movie ticket!!!!
whahaha so sad la..
heart super pain lo..
but lucky we smart la..
went back to the arcade to find..
den luckily i saw it on the coin exchanger desk.
but the uncle like quite fierce den i ask jack to ask la
den the uncle damn cute la ask us what show is it and blah blah blah to prove is ours la..
heng ah lucky i saw tat on the desk if not must buy new one liao.
den went to makan long john!
tat super jack arh.. steal my fries to eat lo!!!
but in the end he buy another set for himself..
but he also help mi eat some la coz i can't finish ma.
den we went flash and splash to see see
coz i also never went in b4 ma..
'cursed' is like just passed only la..
not very funny den the malay couple was like hanky panky beside me lo.
den is like i am watching 2 show at the same time..
den i and jack was like looking and looking.
den he super scare cold la.. still wear jacket!!!
throughout the whole show we are like keep scaring each other?
haha but never kana scared la.
but i think he can feel i jumped coz kana scared a few times in the cinema also.
den we went to walk around after that.
was trying caps with jack at flash and splash den bought a ripcurl wallet again..
dunno whether is that the best choice anot..
but lazy to think since he think tat one also nice den buy lo.
den walk walk walk walk walk den went home liao.
went to serangoon mrt station we went our own way
and he still come tell me be careful dun fall down!!
idiot ass!
haha...

[ V O N ] |Friday, June 03, 2005|

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

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heyhey well today went to school again..
arghh but pon econs lesson so quite ok la..
well.. never study again..
von the great is sick?
haha well went to buy kim,garfield and chek pressie..
haha got garfield a sling bag..
but dunno she like anot..
like kim's pendant lots.
mum promise to get that for me too..
yeah!
well have u seen anyone that think shopping is a torture?
well i feel that way today..
because my bag is super super heavy den is like the pressie and the things i got for myself is super super heavy too!
well i am impressed my ying han actually!
coz i bet with her tat she can't carry those super heavy stuff for me from taka till heeren..
but she did!!
and she forget to get her water bottle back from me!!
duh!! dumb dumb!!
haha.. well i guess today all those things plus together with my bag weighs 3kg!!
have u seen any idiot carrying so many things go walk in orchard?
think today is the first time that she wanted to carry on walking when i rejected her..
haha
ate japanese food for lunch!
well again!!
japanese food!!
thanks to her!
$10 lo!!!!
poor me!

[ V O N ] |Thursday, June 02, 2005|

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