Saturday, April 30, 2005

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boo!
it has been a long long time since i update my blog liao..
haha went to for the big walk today..
thou is like 2 km..
but we went back half way..
took a cab home and have a nap..
haha... slept for 2 hrs den went to meet han,wanlin,kim,kea and frez for lunch..
wah lao the best thing is i dunno they so early wana go home la..
den is like i wear nice nice den go home liao..
hold my dearest elephant hand today..
haha felt loved bo?
den went to meet char after tat coz dun wan to go home..
coz actually was meeting reuben and mervyn for dinner..
but in the end they stay in sentosa so i didn't meet them lo..
thou they say if i want, they will come..
haha anyway they gonna compensate me..
hahaa.. oh ya tat mervyn finally wrote me the testimonial..
i tot tat heartless creature forget liao..
haha.. opps duno he will read tis anot..
haha..
den went to meet joyce and pearly at grapevine!
finally i got to go there sia..
haha well today KRYSTEL let me plane la..
dun say liao
seriously ah i spent about $60 on food today la..
haha didn't drank much today..
but fallen into depression.
got home by walking...
super hot la.
and very quiet..
lucky reuben accompany me home..
wad a sweet pts!
haha..
dun praise him liao la
tat barney..
haha tonight like all the plan gone wrong sia..
but never mind i still enjoy myself.
and i hope those tat went out with mi today do enjoy themselves too..
love u guys!
oh ya.. tonight is full of stars..
lot of glittering in the sky..
i hope..
i hope...
i was with you...

[ V O N ] |Saturday, April 30, 2005|

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Saturday, April 23, 2005

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bohoo..
went out with turtle today!!
haha saw yu lian again.. (as i expected last night...)
my guess is so accurate sia..
haha..
den went to watch creep..
tat show is super disgusting la..
wah lao den i scare char in the cinema..
i was scare la den i grab her den she shock also..
haha..
coz beside mi is 4 empty seats ma..
so i was like lying down and watch the show..
hmmm..
went to walk around in town after the show lo..
haiz..
as usual..
spend lots of money..
let's see..
what i bought today:
x1 mango handbag
x1 xzodus handbag
x1 heels
x1 top
x1 teenage magazine (should i include tat? haha)
ya tat should be all..
and with tat it is enough to make mi bankrupt for the week..
oh shit i am gng out tml.. die liao la!!
well of coz tat is not all i gonna buy la..
wait till i got money den continue my shopping la..
have a great time with turtle today..
hmmm walk till leg pain la.
haha..
i wan nike dunks!~!
went to eat dinner with dad and mum at chomp chomp
haha dad suggested it la..
happening sia him..
was have a da chan there..
before tat i went to pick up my teenage from the stall in the mrt..
coz i damn boliao la
i bought it b4 i go orchard
den i realise bring it to orchard abit troublesome..
so i left it there lo..
haha..
turtle...
where is my rose?
when are we going queenstown?
wkakakakakaa.... (opps i sounded like merv now!! haha)

[ V O N ] |Saturday, April 23, 2005|

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Friday, April 22, 2005

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hello dear blogger...
hmmm went to school as usual.
han never go school.
went to makan swensen with kim and jazz.
3 of us is like clicking onto each other la.. (abit dui bu qi han sia.. shhhhh)
feel so xinfu!
haha...
ppl later tot we lesbian sia..
haha i insist on eating topless 5 even when jazz got sick of it..
but in the end she gave in and share with me..
we order fries too..
haha...
well we got a small fight over lime serbert ya?
haha jazz is an indecisive gal so we have to walk all over bishan den she finally decide to makan swensen..
well we pon chi today..
so at tat time was quite early la...
den is like went to buy some girl stuff after tat
actually only plan to buy a body scrub but in the end with the presence of kim..
spent about $30 la..
haha..
got home..
den rest awhile den decided to go training..
oh ya jazz make us proud..
they won bball against MI..
muack so proud of u..
during the training was quite sucky
coz they really treat us as extra la.
den i already so fed up liao
den my junior come irritate me somemore la..
den i show her black face lo.
i mean she keep asking mi to lend her my racket when i am playing?
den somemore is like i really deprove alot liao lo den super irritated..
den she keep asking
of coz piss mi off la..
went to meet cindy and pearly at serangoon garden after tat for dinner..
keep scratching my body throughout the dinner sia..
in the end..
i resort to use masking tape to stick away all the dead skins on my back..
now feeling damn shiok..
at least not tat itchy..
quite happy tat at least my body is recovering..

[ V O N ] |Friday, April 22, 2005|

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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

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hmmmm chatin with merv now..
but he is like a turtle tat reply so slowly..
haha so i shall just blog now.
well ytd i forget to scold the j1s..
haha they damn stupid la..
run for counsel den in the end let us shoot till their face dunno fly where..
we was like doing lots of booooo sound when they answer our shooting..
den after tat when they 'order' us to stand up and cheer with them.
we just like walk off la..
crazy de leh..
who they think they are manz..
bunch of extras?
haha but i hate them and they hate us too..
i noe i am mean..
haha whu cares rite?
well today guess i really look horrible..
is like i dun even dare to step out of the damn house to go school la.
den i keep looking on the floor like some introvert kid la.
den all my frez keep laughin at me..
joyce my eye lid peel too k!!
haha..
den han insist me on using scotch tape to stick away my dead skin
so i dun need to buy tat ginvera marvel gel..
haha..
well i didn't hand in my hw today.
so sorry mr billabong..
haha..
slept for the whole morning in school..
coz ytd tok till damn late la (as usual)...
haha...
think tonight cannot tok till so late liao..
hope my face faster ok..
den on sat can go SHOPPING..
oh ya stupid lover still owe me a testimonial..
gosh i think i am have more and more lover liao..
heh heh..
ohya cindy.. thanks for all those words tat u wrote for me.
appreciate it alot..
haha u rival!
or izzit 'fling only ma..' ?
haha
bleah!

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, April 20, 2005|

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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

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i am so ugly now!!
arghh can't stand myself..
i am peeling and peeling!!!
and my body is aching and aching..
wth..
i have enough of everything already..
can anyone just scold me for not doing my work?
what is happening manz.
tml i got homework to hand up and i intend not to do..
i am so so uncomfortable with myself..
wad i want seriously?
give my life back!
went school as usual.
but my swatch watch strip broke.
so sway la.
it seems like everything of him must end one by one!!
i am so helpless to stop anything..
i can't stand it!
everyone was laughing at me due to my skin tat is peeling..
went to meet dad at his office after school!
well i guess my expense is all used to pay the cab fare sia..
bought a ben Q lap top today.
so tired after tat..
doze off in the car.
oh yeah i got my aloe vera gel le.
so expensive!
arghhh..
i am irritated!!
pissed!
pain!
sad!
helpless!
hopeless!
disappointed with u!

[ V O N ] |Tuesday, April 19, 2005|

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Monday, April 18, 2005

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yoz..
tis morning when i wake up my body is like super pain la..
change my clothes also got prob lo...
went to school for 3 lesson nia..
my whole body was burning la..
and everyone was laughing at me..
idiot!!
den told kim not to touch me..
den tis violent gal got short term memory la..
whack me after tat.
make me screaming like hell and the pain last for 10 mins..
10 mins la..
angry~!
seriously ah..
even when i move my body also super pain lo..
i think tis is my worst sun tanning outing..
i got phobia of sun!!
arghhhhh..
went to eat d cafe after school!!
yum yum..
took cab home coz i am a vampire now..
and i can't expose to sunlight if not i will die!!!
guess what the cab fare only $3 ..
haha.
think tat cab uncle must be thinking tat i am mad!!
haha..
reach home about 12..
mum tot i was sick sia..
so funny..
my time table rox!
think tml bring plastic bag to school liao..
i can't even carry my bag lo..
and i am having sore throat soon..
arghhh..
i hate sun!

[ V O N ] |Monday, April 18, 2005|

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Sunday, April 17, 2005

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hey hey
nothing to write about today seriously..
heh heh thought was reuben was angry with me..
tat xiao qi gui..
but he is not la..
den keep bugging krystel to tell me he is not angry..
damn funny la he..
hmm..
told mummy tat i fainted ytd..
she suggested tat we should go see a doctor..
and i agree.
of coz if i find out there is any illness in me (choy)
den i can do the right thing at the right time ya?
haha
today my body is aching thoroughly..
wah like wad action i do also super pain..
damn idoitic la..
arghhhhh
i look like a red lobster can?
oh ya i really miss ytd..
hey girls..
i miss all those dirty conversation we had..
with pearly having -100 sex hormone in her body!!
hope to have it again in the near future ya...

a little piss with u are selecting my questions to answer..
forget it den since u also din realise and reply so slowly..
learnt a lesson.
not to msg u before i sleep..
if not i will keep waking up waiting for ur msg..
and even dream about them.
so now u noe u have so great impact on me?
hur.. must be thinking tat i reap what i soe rite?
nvm..
think tat i am so so stupid..
i mention break up and in the end seems like i can't let go of u..
think u must be happy tat i have this day?
anyway i am glad tat u have been studying..
thou i haven't..
haha..
duno when den i can pick in my studies..
i see some result on my past effort thou..
but i noe.. now.. with what i am doing now..
all these past effort will go into waste.
u noe something i am genuinely glad about u realise what u have been doing..
and studying..
one of the motives of me breaking up with u..
is tat i want u to wake up..
look at what u are doing recently..
is it right or wrong?
thou i noe it is a gamble
but i am really hopeless..
since u started studying den i guess i have won the gamble by a little..
or rather i use our r/s to exchange for u to wake up.
(tat time when u tell mi u might be ruining ur life.. i really tot i've lost the gamble)
but thank god! it is not the case..
i am not trying to be wei da..
but i ask u..
who can still wake u up?
will u listen to ur parent?
i doubt so..
ur frez?
if yes, when will tat be?
i dun think u have much time seriously..
i want the best for u and make it asap.
i believe that only when u lose something den u will look back.
i told no one about this reason b4..
or else they will say i am dumb..
but it's ok..
really..
i am saying it now..(despite i will get scolding from my frez..)
not to make u regret..
but since u already make my plan successful..
den i think it's ok to let out the secret.
and u even think tat i break up with u coz u can't satisfy me materially..
i dun feel like explaining..
i know i don't have to.
maybe when u have ur next relationship u will noe what i really wants in the past.
i will wait..
continue studying ba!!!
jia you!!

ye xu ni bu hui dong,cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou, wo de tian kong.. xing xing dou liang le..

[ V O N ] |Sunday, April 17, 2005|

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Saturday, April 16, 2005

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went to sentosa for tanning with pearly and joyce..
cindy suppose to join us..
but she can't wake up..!!
lazy pig!!
now i am like roasted pig...
burning hot..
well i want to thanks joyce for her bikini..
so nice of her.
fainted again on my way home..
didn't tell my mum..
dun think there is a need to make her worry for me..
pearly still there to tell me she is also fainting when i tell her i am fainting..
and in the end i fainted or rather should i say.. i blackout.
lucky they pull me up on time.. if not i will be kneeling on the bus back to harbour front.
i'm trying so so so hard to stay awake..
but i lost the battle.
when i wake up..
i really couldn't see any sharp image..
everything was blur..
i can't even noe where is the seat..
i felt so hopeless and helpless den.
thanks to my en ren include cindy for buying drinks for me.
think i fainted becoz of not eating lunch and my isomia..
haven't been sleeping well recently..
suddenly i just feel tat no ones really care..
no ones bother..
including u.
i noe i have been acting so strong in front of everyone when deep in me..
i feel so sucky..
even my body break down on me..
how much stronger can i be?
i noe tat now i really can't bear with it anymore..
i am soo soo soo tired..
can someone just lend me a shoulder to lie on?
till now den i noe i am just a girl.
anyway today suck for me..
de zhui lots of ppl..
and i noe they are really fed up with me..
maybe i really shouldn't show my temper to them..
i am so sorry.
had dinner at coffee club.. harbour front.

[ V O N ] |Saturday, April 16, 2005|

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Friday, April 15, 2005

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yoz it's friday!
finally it friday again!!
hoho..
got back my project work (pw) result today..
feeling damn shiok la
got a 2 (of coz 1 is the best..)
but i am easily satisfied!!
haha well i pon badminton again..
we went on strike.
no one is going today..
haha..
han was sick today..
tot she bluff but kim said tat she was really really sick..!
and thanks to the absence of han..
kim stick to me like hell..
make us look as if we are glue together and i ask for an operation to separate us..
haha..
well i noe she is sweet.. uh hmm...

well as to you..
don't worry i am not going to shoot back.
if not it is gonna to be endless..
maybe u can continue to think the way as u are now.
it doesn't matter..
i dun feel like quarreling with u or continue this argument anymore..
it is getting no where..
and i am really tired.
something doesn't really matter on whu is right and whu is wrong.
besides it is the past already.
sometimes i really hope to say i miss u..
sometimes i really wan to give up..
hai..
u also dun wan to tell what's happening and hu is tat person..
it makes me feeling even worst lo..
i rather u just say it now.
seriously i really hope tat we can be like 2 days ago..
chatting happily..
but i dunno why things turn out this way again..........
do u think tat tis is the best way out?
i dun think so....

[ V O N ] |Friday, April 15, 2005|

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Thursday, April 14, 2005

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hmmm..
firstly.. i must thank our cat for her wonderful chocolate bread!
i tot she will not spare me one..
but surprisingly she did..
oh i love her(or rather it?) so much!!
i 'committed' sucide today!!
haha no la..
just a minor bleeding on my fingers..
thanks to my dearest 0.38 purple uni pen!
was going home from serangoon gardens today with krys
ate my rasins and apple crumble at coffee bean!!
den saw a pl lite kissing happily with her boyfrez..
oh my god.
now i realise why our teachers were so strict with public behaviour..
it is totally disgusting..
as if nobody exist there and they are alone..
of coz with my character..
we move closer to them to have a better view..
haha..
den can see their tongue moving!!
C E N S O R E D!
den in the bus also kissing happily behind me..
make the uncle keep lookin at them..
haha they look desperate for kissing?
or horny?
anyway i am not jealous of it k?
haha
was listening to 933 ying yue re ji juz now.
they was tokking about frezship and suddenly i realise..
frezship is really very important to anyone of us..
it makes us feel tat we still are important in each other's heart esp when we feel we dun worth anything.
and of coz when u are down..
all of them will appear and comfort u..
telling u tat u did not regret making them as ur frez..
i really do treasure all of them..
wanted to making it a everlasting one.
of coz it might be difficult..
but it worth a try ya?
coz i feel tat jc and sec school frez is the best and true frez i am gonna have as when we grow older..
frezship might not only bulid on sincerity and trust but with many selfish unknown factors..

to all my darlings:
i'm really touch to hear those comforting words coming out of u guys mouth..
seriously it make me feel better.
at least i noe u guys are there out for me..!
love u guys so much!

ok.. down to the serious and most essential part of my entry
ok.. well u din reply my msg..
and i shan't force u to.
or perhaps i say something tat u dunno how to reply?
actually i also guess tat person is a gal..
i juz wana let u let the cat out of the bag ya?
well remember when i said i wanna a break up..
u said tat once i say it den hold on to my words?
so in tat case..
u shouldn't be doubting of whether is a breakup good or bad.
u noe wad?
u give mi a feeling tat only at night when u are lonely den u come and contact me.
while in the morning.. u have ur company of frez so when i reply ur msg it is not tat impt to reply?
u noe why i didn't cool down.
coz tat night ur tone piss me off.
we did patch on 13th of march..
but did u treasure the last chance?
instead u become bad to worst?
alright i shouldn't say that coz u dun even noe what's wrong with u.
maybe u can let ur bee 'enlighten' u with her love and care and concern for u.
i am too.. making a big adjustment in my new life.
and the last thing i hate to see is u destorying ur life.
and i have said it to u many times.
if u realli do tat.
i also wun stop u.
i have no right to.
juz filled with disappointment!
dun u think part of our love got so fragile is due to ur action?
do u think a relationship should really be how u treat me as?
alright fine..
maybe u dun even noe how u treated me as?
so treat it as i never say?
anyway tat is already the past?
now what i hope is maybe we still can be frez..
don't u feel that u only begin to realise the importance of this r/s only after we breakup (which is too late?) and after we patch (a period of time only..) den u will get back to ur old self again?
dun u think if tat is the way..
it really defeat the purpose of doing all those things?
i dunno why i am talking so much rubbish to u..
or rather i duno why i have such a damn big reaction.
but one thing for sure i dun feel good either..
i dun wan to give up hope on u..(thou many told me to do tat..)
but i dun wan to see u ruining urself?
din u promise me not to drink and smoke so much?
u finally on the way to quit smoking b4 we break up but in the end..
u are back to smoking..
seriously are u crazy?
dun u noe wad is good for u?
ur frez dun need study den u dun study?
if gabriel they all are going to poly, they can dun give a damn about their studies now
but dun u noe u are diff from them?
and they will juz ended up having a brighter future den u?
i am not comparing u and him..
but dun u think this is a fact?
dun come telling mi u noe u are stupid or wadever.
u can do it if u wan to.
once u did put in hard work but is not enough.
and when u haven't see the result u gave up.
dun u think is such a waste?
do u think going out every nite will make ur future look brighter?
or dun u realise u are just wasting ur life away?
sometimes u must noe when to enjoy and when to get serious on work
(well maybe u think tat i am not in a position to lecture u.. and if tat is the case den juz ignore all the things tat i said)
i dunno why am i scolding u or wadeva u think i am doing..
but my prime motive is get u to wake up and see tat damn picture clearer!
time is running out..
one day when u look back ..
u might be full of regrets and do u want this to happen?
seriously i dunno what's wrong with u!
why did u change till like that?
if u dun wan to help urself..
no one can..
dun u understand?
pls stand up!
treat it as i begging u.
stop doing things tat u will regret!
be it anything u are doing now~!
and thru all these..
there is lessons to learn..
dun think so much during the night.
or else things will turn otherwise..
ytd it seems like a great improvement btw the 2 of us .
but today we are back to sq one.
i guess i dun need say the reason.
u know it!
and vincent remember once i told u..
dun tell me how u feel deep inside u coz i can't see ur action proving to me on what u have said.
or in other words.. action speak louder den words..
till now i still believe in that.
prove to me in action den.
what u are feeling in you sincerely!

[ V O N ] |Thursday, April 14, 2005|

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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

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haiz..
think i did something bad today.
seriously i think we are quite mean..
maybe we really hurt her a lot..
maybe we will have retribution..
the worst thing tat i hate doing has come true..
dunno is this beneficial or sucks for her..
maybe garfield is right..
we are baddies.
god tell mi is this right or wrong?
or should be pretend to be nothing happen and make her life suck?
omg of coz i am not trying to act as a saint.
but after doing all those thing..
perhaps there is a need for reflection on our 'speech' towards her?
i know neither of us feel good too~

well as usual when school as usual today..
hmm was stretching during econs lesson..
and mr bong thinks tat i wan to ask him question finally.
haha so funny..
den he say make him happy for anything..
well.
got home after school..
came online..
tok abit and went to sleep..
so tired..
finally i got to sleep for 4 hours with the interruption of han's call!

well for u..
i hope u will get on with life..
i mean life is full of uncertainties..
can't give up so fast u know?
u might face the down part in life..
but as long as u dun give up,
life will not give up on u.
i'm getting along fine with a lonely night every day..
hope u will be happy too..
hmmm..
oh ya.. heard tat u are sick..
take good care of urself ya?
no drinking.. no smoking
haha
guess i am not eligible to say such thing to u already..
well..
be good!
dunno wad to say also..

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, April 13, 2005|

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Tuesday, April 12, 2005

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took early leave today..
thou i am regret on taking it today..
went to meet krys instead.
suppose to go serangoon garden coffee bean.
but there is super duper cold!!
so went to her hse instead..
but i dun even her dad convert the roof to a wonderful study area!
next time must go there more often liao!!
damn shiok..
took some pic before i left..
coz she insisted?
suppose to study but in the end i feel like sleeping..
so went home instead..
nearly lost my way home..
but i was determine not to call him to ask how to go home..
and the bus drove around all the terraces houses and i definitely know i went the wrong way.
back from to serangoon garden again after a big turn.
lucky this time round i didn't go down..
met pearl and jinghui in the bus.
the bus is going the right way this time round.
just give mi one more week..
i guess i can..
i can i try to leave the past in the past..
carry on with my future.
stand up from my failure.
be a stronger person..
i wish u all the best.
treasure urself.

oh god.
i wish i can get my sleeping pill soon..
everyday i like only get to sleep for about 4 hours..
i am breaking down soon!!
i can't get to sleep!!
trust me.. it's terrible when u know tat u have to sleep and u can't
and going senile soon!
i know that at this rate, my school work is going no where
i know that at this rate, i am going to fail a's..
and i definitely know that i have no motivation or rather mood to study..
nothing seems to be that important anymore.

[ V O N ] |Tuesday, April 12, 2005|

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Monday, April 11, 2005

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hello dear blogger..
went to school as usual.
went for only 2 lesson..
coz only got 2 lesson?
haa..
when we reach plaza singapura is like they just open their store?
u imagine how early are we?
hoping to forget everything and start afresh..
went to watch the wedding date again with garfield..
but the feeling of watching tat movie is still the nice..
super nice..
tat is the word i would use to describe it..
as usual..
we smuggle illegal food in.
but we bought nacho combo too...
went to roam about it town again..
alot of things caught my eyes..
think i must be saving up soon to buy those things..
got myself a little drench when i was going home..
i'm broke!
i'm a shopaholic!

as usual.. night the has come.
sun had set.
trying hard not to think about anything..
sometimes i think tat i am leaving in denial..
i dun believe its over..
ha.
i dun believe.
i'm afraid of watching ghost show alone at home...
when my phone ring..
i hope it is you..
but i know it's impossible..
arghh... shut up yvonne!

[ V O N ] |Monday, April 11, 2005|

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Sunday, April 10, 2005

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i hope u will remember this song..
be it good or bad memories..

wang le you duo jiu
zai mei ting dao ni
dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi
wo xiang le hen jiu
wo kai shi huang le
shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me
#ni ku zhao dui wo shuo
tong hua li du shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le
*wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
Repeat # and *
wo yao bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
wo hui bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
yi qi xie wo men de jie ju

[ V O N ] |Sunday, April 10, 2005|

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couldn't get into sleep..
no matter how hard i try..
i know deep in me are dying of sleepness..
i'm waiting for a sms..
but i bet it will never arrive.
it seems like i am a fool typing everything down here.
about someone who dun care about my life and death..
heck about my msg..
i also dunno why am i msging him..
seem like a desperate idiot dying for somebody to loves me?
it tat really the case?
god can u be more helpful.. ?
stop letting me see his image once i close my eyes.
i need to rest..
really need to..
why must i cry to sleep and wake up with the similar situation?
make my handphone spoil or whatever..
just stop me from typing any msg to him..
my hands were not within my control either.
suppose to called my sis in the morning
and ended up nearly called his phone twice..
say something more realistic ba..
i know that deep in him..
he dun need me anymore..
i know..
i dun feel like finding out the reason behind it.
if not he will not hurt me the way he is doing now.
my tears has already erase away all those good memories we had before.
we don't owes each other anymore..
there is nothing call forever..
nothing call fairytale!
it's just a desperate surge of hope..
a hope for fairytale.
but it will never happen in this world..
never!
it's time for me to wake up..
to face this heartless world!
i didn't tell alot of people we had broke up.
feel that there isn't such a need.
moreover it can't make mi feel better either.
i shall face it..
face it myself.
he thought i break up because of he goes out every nite and i'm not happy with his life..
but this is not the main root of the break up.
i shan't explain it too.
i regretted in believing him..
i should not have patched things out with him in the past..
and now i will not feel so terrible.
he told me he will treasure the last chance i gave him..
i tot i made the right choice den..
i was wrong totally..
but this time i am totally dying off..
we will never patch again..
i said that before..
u really didn't treasure the last chance i give u..
or rather u dun even intend to.
maybe u think tat by running away will solve all the problem..
tat shows how mature is your thinking.
alright..
u choose to destory your life further..
tell me not to care about you..
making my past efforts go into the bin.
i have no say over this.
maybe this is the last time i going to cry for you..
or rather yea.. it's the last time.
i will turn my feeling numb whenever it comes to things tat concern you!
u can continue to lead the life that u want

no one is gonna to stop you..
choose to give up on urself den!

oh god it's such a mistake to know you!
i must admit i'm totally defeated by you!

[ V O N ] |Sunday, April 10, 2005|

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Saturday, April 09, 2005

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hello dear blogger!
today went out with my ever dearest turtle..
hmmmm...
went to shop around in orchard..
got most of the things i wanted to buy..
done lots of catching out..
it's a day with mi and her..
well i must say..
turtle is nice..
help mi carry all my things when i shopped..
had a nice and romantic dinner in swensen?
haha told myself not to spend money on food.
but in the end.. i couldn't resist ice cream!!
oh yeah bought my guess handbag today...!
took neos after dinner..
but full of regret..
turtle will noe why...
as usual..
turtle send bunny home!!
nice nice!
I AM BROKE!

[ V O N ] |Saturday, April 09, 2005|

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Thursday, April 07, 2005

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I LOVE THE WEDDING DATE!
hello dear blogger..
lover waited for me for 2 hours today cause my lesson ends later den hers..
so touch la..
so she went to gel her hair in the meanwhile.. quite well done la..
den rush to watch the wedding date..
oh my god..
trust me tat show is super super nice la..
it soooooo sweet...
awww...
anyway lover is sweet too..
very gentleman like..
took great care of me today..
went to yamaha music school in ps today..
lover played some songs for me to hear..
thou not tat fluent but great effort..
and it is very nice..
and lover dun forget tat u are suppose to play it in school for me too k?
hahaa
hmmm...
lover put all ur sadness aside ok?
u still have us!!!
lover send mi home today till my house downstairs..
and she is amaze of my house having a see-saw..
so i have no choice but to play with her for awhile...
sarcrifice my sleeping time..
but see she so nice send mi home..
guess it is all worth it!
hope she didn't lost her way out..
and u noe wad?
i realise she like to stay in a book store for as long as possible!!
weird?
haha dun tok about her liao..
later her head goes bigger and bigger till it explode!
hahaa

[ V O N ] |Thursday, April 07, 2005|

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Saturday, April 02, 2005

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hello dear blogger..
haha was reading my past entries..
realise tat life was really much simpler in the past.
guess i really zhen zhen ai guo and zhen zhen si qu guo..
some of the entries in really make me laugh.. some of it.. i can't even rem.. some of it makes me cry..
realise tat actually animal farm are really close.. but not now..
at least i feel so.
anyway it's great readin all this entries.

guess to you...
i really tried hard before..
other things i dunno whether i tried my best..
but this time round, i know i did..
seems like u didn't treasure all those things and my effort..
and i am tired already..
i dun see there is a result..
i know i can write all sorts of thing coz u will never read.
now it juz look at as i have reach the 'forget it' stage.
i dun wan to give up..
but maybe it really fading or rather faded..
i have gradually lose my best frez in primary school!
i will accept the fact one day..
one day.. i will..

ok enough of the bad thing
went to eat seoul garden ytd..
with pearly ..
hmmm it was shiok..
she fall in love with my sichuan chicken..
and guess wad?
she see her small small..
she can actually crack eggs and fry them..
good jod dearie!!
seriously i am quite impress by her..
went shopping around taka..
and took some stupid pics.
fall in love with my guess handbad and one swarovski pandent.
and the best part is tat she can even ask mi to buy things for her when i am choosing present for my cousin..
funny hur?
and she is not paiseh about it~! haha
and u noe wad is the thing she like?
elmo pappet!!

[ V O N ] |Saturday, April 02, 2005|

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