YOz dIAry.. hAHa reMeMBer ON thE frIdaY tAT kRYsteL go cOMpaRE gABriEL wiTH dENNis~!! wAD aN inSULt lOr.. deN mAKE mE so anGRy 4 the WHolE daY.. HAha dunNO whY I wiLL feEL anGRY fOR gaB aLso.. wAHahaa.. aNywaY i updaTE mY wEbbIE liAO sO ppL mUst go seE k.... yA tOday bEtter DUN sAY so mUch MY DAddY likE waNNA kILL mE....
yOZ dIARy~ hAIz tODAY sO swaY waN lO.. eRM rEach hoME aroUNd 9 plUs cOZ iSH liKE whEN tuiTiON aFTer sCHOOL dEN gO eAT dInnER dEN go yamAHA~ dEN ish cOME hoME kANa scOLdinG frOM mY pARENt~~!!! daMN fREAK ofF loR~ hAIz dEN tHEY caLL tO stOP mY yaMahA teMp. cOZ goT alOT of tHIng tO dO~~ iT liKE comEon lOR iS likE is thEY all cALL mE lEArn 1st wAN lOE~ wAd thEY thINK thEY dOing.. iSH liKE whEN i decIDed wANted tO dO my bESt IN eVERythINg i hAD anD uSE mY tiME fuLLY dEN thEY likE taT... i MEAn i duN fEEL sTresS loR.. pROviDEd thEY lEaVe ME aLOne.. thEY liKE takINg aLL thE thiNG aWAy frOM mE~ i mEAN i ALreaDY lEFt wITh nOThiNG liaO thEY stILL WanNa likE tat.. i REALLi dUN hAF aNythINg oTHer deN thOSe lOR.. whEN i lEArn tO trEasuRE dEN thEY liKE tat.. bUT nVM i wiLL neVer gIvE uP~ thoU eVen wHEn eVEryONE objEct i wiLL stiLL dO IT~~~ hAI toDay iS a sWAY daY foR mE lA.. dUn saY liAO~!~!!!
heLLO diARy~ gUESs waD? hAHa i gOT demaRIt 3 pOInT~ hAIz veRI saD loR... iSH liKE PASt 3 YeAr nEVer gET iNTo anY oFfeND IS liKE wASted .. tHE lASt yEAr i goT tiS.. mAYbe nO tEStiMOny OSO.. sO suxY~ cAN't bEliEve thE faCt lor... hAHA mAYbe I lEAviN iN seLf-denIEd wOrLD.. u Noe waD? tAT timE whEN i nOE TAT i gOT deMAriT pT, i rEalli wANted tO sEE sOMEbOdY... mAYbe i caN bE hAPPY aGaIn.. sUddENly i feEL sO emPty nO ONE cARes.. bUT dEN who caN i cALL? i dUNNO~ lASt tIme tHEre IS onE buT noW gONe liAO.. sO i hAd tO fACe It mYSeLf... mAYbe ONLi bY tat i wiLL bE iNDepENdeNT... bUT i oNLI lEArn in THe hARd wAY.. hAHA toDAY i wENt tO stARdEe... aT bURgeR kINg ( hEARtlAnd maLL) bUT dEN likE nEvER stuDy UNtiL kEEp tOKing ABOut thE pASt reLatioNshiP aLL of uS hAD... hAi dEN tOK abOUT i anD gAB lor.. dEN eVErythiNg elSe.. hAHa gUESs aLL thoU readIN tIS noW sURe thiNKin hoW i fEEL wHEN i tOK aBOUt hiM rite? hAHa actUaLLY.. i dID fEEl sOMetHINg bUT dEN dUNo hoW tO exPlaIN.. mAYbe kINd OF mIss thE meMOrIES wE haD in thE pASt.. bUt dEN gUEss nOW hE iS bEttER oFF lIviNg wiThouT mE.. sO i gUEss i onLI cAN be The fREz.. bUT cAN tO thiNK oF it, lAst tIMe he reALLI veRI nICE tO mE .. tHOU eVEryONE saYs bUT dEN i liKE nEVER trEasURE dEN noW like Tat lOr.. hAIz.. bUT i reALLI reALLI dId loVE hIM whOLehEARteDlY beFORE~~!! i reALLI rEALLI dID.. mAYbe aLL of mY fREz dUNNO OR caN't tREasURE bUT mAYBe i chOOse tO lovE iN hiM IN siLEnce.. bUT dEN lAst tIME i uSEd to thINK i lOVe hIM buT whY i keEPin fA pi qi ON hIm.. deN tAt tIMe durINg lesSon deN mIss lAU saY bUT pPL in Love tENd to fa pi qI cOZ tO sEEk aTteNTioN ... den likE tAT i nOThiNG to sAY liaO lor.. dEN tODAy aT bURgeR kING WE tOK aBOUt thE chRistMAs pARty we Had lASt yEAR... and guESs tAT tHE laSt tIME i aND hiM aPPEar to bE cOUpLE.. thOU wE wAs wITh OUr oWN grOUp oF fREz bUT deN hE stILL mEANt aLOT tO mE taT timE... hAIZ it hAD bEEn 4 Mth sINce wE brOKe le.. TAt nITe i reALLI reALLI rEgREtteD nEVer ansWEr thE lASt cALL hE caLLEd hiS dEAr cOZ thE nExt mSG waS tO bREAK uP~ hAIz... reALLI duNNO.. bUT nOW guESs liKE hE oSO cHANge TO aNOTher pERson liaO.. mAYbe is gOOd mAYbe bAD.. bUT i duNNO.. i caN't cHAnGE... aND oNE thiNG i wILL nEVER fOrget iS tAT oNcE vINcenT saId tO mE tAT hE reALLI enVY uS cOZ we aRe vERI lOving.. reALLI thANKs fOR tAT cOMpliMENt.. gUESs TAt thE onLI thINg i hAD iN tAT reLatioNShip.. PPL oSO teLL mE likE vERi sUDden whEN wE brOke oFf.. dUn aSk mE whY cOZ aFter 4 mTH i stiLL duNNO.. i wAS shock tOO~!!! uNfaiR riTE? hAIz bUT i tREAT AS hE duN likE mE le.. dEN plUs thE moTheR liKE unhAPPy so hE brOke lOR.. hAIz but ACtuALLy NOe oR duNNO oSO duN mAKE A dIff nOW..cOz mAYbe iT iS alrEAdy hIStoRy tO hiM lE.. anYway he aLsO gOinG poLY lE.. sO mAYBe gOT BettER gAL thE chOOSe frOm... wISh HIM gOOD lucK~ hAIz.. fATe. ( u NOe wHY i wrOTe tIS hERE? cOZ i thiNK hE oSO wuN reAd wAN.. sO lOng lo~ hAHa) bUT gAb IF u eVEr rEAd tIS, rEALLI thANks fOR thE unCOndiTioNaL loVE U gAVe ME in The PASt.. aNd tAKE caRe... hAHA dUNNO wHY.. sO lONg liAO.. bUT i stILL mY hEARt acHINg whEn i writINg tIs.. hAHa mAYBe iT jUz tiMe... mAYbe i jUZ caN't lET go oF thE mEmoRies... dUN wORry gAb i nOT trYIng tO Add bURdeN to yoU.. bUT mAYBe iT jUZ betTer tO wriTE tIS out... COz tIS hAD bEEn IN ONe cORnER oF mY hEArt fOR quiTE sOMETIME.. sO reLAx~ yeAH~ aND mY bESt fREZ~ iF u 38 reaD tIS.. dUn anYhoW cONcLUde thIng k.. IF nOT i cONfIRM chOP u INTO piECes~!!!! hahA
heLLO.. dIAry... hAHa tML go sCHooL aGain... SO sIAN~!~!~ hAHA.. dEN tmL nEEd gO sEE DM.. dIE liAO.. hOpe dUN gET anY deMarIT PT sIa.. iF noT i sURE cRY~ hAHA anYway wAtchING tHE nKf sHOW nOw.. ISh LikE sEe thE pPL thERe so keLiaN~! hAHA~ aiYo iSH liKe tODay aCtuALLY sUppOSeLy tO fEEl sAd over sOmEthiNg.. bUT deN iSH liKE i tELL mysELf i wUn bE sAd cOZ i alrEAdy PREdiCted HOW thE pERson wiLL saY liaO.. haHA tO aLL thoSE kPO i wUn teLL u WAd IS thaT.. u aLL gO aSK thE anOTheR parTY loR.. bUt dEN i gUESs u aLL oSO duNNo hoW anD mAYbe tAT persON oSO dUnno wHO i sAYinG.. hAHA vERi cOMpLicaTed hOR? hAHa anYway nExt WEEk gOt aLOt OF tESt sIA~~ diE lIAO aLL likE NeveR sTUdy~! bUT anYwAY i tODay oSO likE gOT NOThinG to saY.. hAHA aNYwAY taT'S aLL~!
heLLO deaR diARy... hAHA i mONdaY kANa acCuse OF steaLing sIA.. sO iDoiTic rITE? noT sAY mI nO MonEY to PAY.. hAHa.. aNYway brOughT aN INstANT caMera ON mondaY.. hAHAH actUALLy gOT noThinG to saY muCh cOZ iS likE sCHooL liKE taT lor.. hAIz... dEAr diARy u nOe Wad.. noW alOT oF pEopLE arOund ME liAO aLL so hEArtbrOken.. hAHA jUZ wanNA reMind mE oF mY PASt lOve liKE taT.. hAIZ thE moRE i see tHe moRE i saD.. haiZ... soMetIME iS bESt tO aviOd thE ONE u lOVe... cOZ liKE tat wiLL cURE uR sCAr.. bUT den iSH jUst tAt u lOve hiM so mUch TAt u cOUldn't jUz hECK cAre him.. thOU hE mIGht nOT liKE u ... bUT deN doEsn't cHAnge mY loVE... hAIz.... oTHEr lOVe tO mE sEEms NOnE of mY buSinESs .. bUt hiS .. i caN't.. hAIZ sOMEtiMES i reALLI wanNA aSK hiM iF tHERe iS stiLL anoTHEr cHANcE.. wILL tHERe bE anY cHANges TO us? hAIz dIARy u noE whY i dARe to wrIte hERe? cOZ 80% hE wUn gIVE a dAMn tO read... hAIz not i hEck Care loVE.. i reALLi wantEd tO.. bUT deN is jUZ taT i lOst thE bATtlE.... hAIz.... i dUN wan To feEL sAD anYmoRE... aNd i gUESs TAt wHEn thE tIME i tAKE bACk mY hp... wHEn i sMS hIM thE fIrST mSG tAt tIMe.. thE feELing wILL bE gONe... cOZ thE lEASt biT feELing hE haD fOR me.. hAd gONE~ diSApPEAR~
heLLO dEAr dIARy gOT mISs mE? haHa toDAY finaLLY wENt OUt sIA .. bUT nEVER spENt aLOT oF mOney gUEss aBOut $10 ONLI hAHA cOZ i gOT aTM mAH.. hAHA no LA.. nOah tREAt maH sO liKE neVer sPEnt mONey.. acTualLY wanNA bUY bAG waN bUT dEN NO tiMe lOR.. sO sICk rITE~!~!~ hAIz... dEN iSH liKE mY mAMA aCtuALLY dUN lEt mE go waTch movIE waN tHAnkS to thE sARS.. bUT i dIE dIE oSO gO wATcH dREamCaTCheR ... hAHA noT NIce tO sHOW waN.. Ppl dUn wASte MOneY wATcH k... hAHA den latER wHEn tO play pOOL wiTH NOAh lA.. TAt pEarly aNd jOvaN bOTh oSO duN wan pLAy... sO bAD waN riTE? hAHA.. dEN aCtuaLLY wanNA go eSplaNDe waN.. bUT i nEVer gO cOZ i cANNOt gO hoME lATE... sO wasTED~! neVEr mIND nExt tIME i cONfiRM go~!~! hAHA ya.. lATer gOing OUt agaIN... gO gAThER wITh daNNi anD yvEttE vERI lONg nEVer tOK to thEM le....=) hAHa yA lor.. mAYbe bY keEpinG mYseLF bUsy... dEN cAN fORgeT eVerytHing lOR... hAIz... mAybe tAT thE cASe... stILL got aLOT oF hoMEwoRK neVER dO~ hAHHa bUT DUN cARe lE LA... hAHa
heLLO dEAr diARy... u gOT miSs mE? hAHA gUEss i ok Liao.. hAHa AfTer SO mANy fEw OF OFflININg lIne... hAIZ aCTuALLy i oSO dUNO whAt tO sAY to yOU.. coZ likE nOTHING hAPPen tIS fEW dAYs.. lifE likE veRI pEAcefuL fOR mE... hAHA duNNO whEThER hAPPY oR saD.. coZ liKE noT advEntUre hOr.. jUZ likE stAyiNG aT hOMe watchINg tv aND tOK oN pHoNe tiLL 4aM eVErydaY lor.. hAHa toK aBOUT ghOSt aND stuFFs aND sCAre OUrseLveS... hAIz aCTUalLy dEAr dIAry caN u tELL mi peACefuL life iS a gOOd thiNG oR bad thiNG? hAHa u wAn TO noE whY mY liFE so peacEfuL noW? coZ i dUN wISh tO thINK abOuT anYthiNg.. nO lOVe.. nO emOTioN... mAYbe alL tiS iS jUZ thE pASt lE.. oR mAYbe gO scH tAT tiME i wiLL be lASt tIMe thE mE agAIN oR mAybe not.. COZ i reALLI tOO tiRed TO thiNK aboUT anyThiNG anYmoRE... aLL thE loVE thIng Is nOT mY bUsinESS le.. eVen iF onE dAY thE sKy droP oso wUn aFfect mE.. cOZ ish liKE i duN sEE tHERe iS a poInt.. hAHa mAybe iS a bAd tHIng OSO.. cOZ i dUN cARe aBOUt anYThing anYmorE.. bUT mAybe tIS caN makE mi fEEL bETTer~ hAHA waD dO yoU thINK dEAr diARY? hAHA BUT anYway deAR diAry taKE caRe oF uRselF yA~ mUACK~!
heLLo dEar dIary~ hAHa i veRI tIRed NOw... 5 aM deN sLEEp... HAha bUT dUn wORrY... NOt coZ i veRI hARdwORkING anD stUdy ISh i veRI taLkatIve aND tOK to pEARly AND nOAh~~ haHA thEY all kEEp saYINg gHOst stORies aND sCARE mE!! sO idIOT!! HAHa dEN yTd I wHen TO sAO MU~ dEN isH likE VerI eaRLy deN go thERe liaO la... sO iS abOut 6 Am liKe tAT lOr... dEN isH liKE thE iMagINe 6aM uR cAR iN sPEedIN on tHE hIghwAY... tHe fEELing iSH liKE so shIOK lOr ...iSh liKE sO fRee aND fASt espeCIally theRE waSn't mUCh cAr aRouND anD U sEE tHE sTrEEtligHT cHAsiNg u... sO NICE~ hAHA aS iF caN fORgeT aLL thE wORry... hAIz dEAr diaRy.. u NOe waD? i dEciDed tO go baCK to wHO i AM befORE i noE gabRieL.. mAybe i wan mAKe iT bEtter... i wUn faLL in LovE so eaSILY liAO... aND i wILL hECk cARe aLL the LoVE stUFF... tAt tIMe i tOOK hALf a YEAr dEN gOT tOUch tiS tIME I gUESs i wiLL mAKE it mORE! I mEAN waD iS lOVe lor? it ONLI huRt u! sO waD it gIVe u hoPE iN Life? bUt deN u ONe u lOVe hEcK carE? deN waD fOR? i reALLI shUO guO le!! wAD thE pERson WAn to dO iS up TO hiM~~ i mEAN loVE reALLI suX~ suX to thE cORE!! fUCk LOVE oFF~! hAIZ dEAr dIARy mAYBe i mIGht not cOMe ONLIne fOR a PERioD oF tIME... nEEd tO coOL doWN fiRSt... sO DUN miSS mi k...? i wiLL miSS u ~~~~ tAKE cARE dEAr diARy~ i LOVe u lOT~~~ reaLLI..... cOZ u Are thE onLI oNE whO Is aLWays thERe fOR mI~~ mISs yA toO.. mUACk~! <-- haHA i VEri lOng nEVer gIVE anYone liaO~ anYway who cARES?
heLLo dEAr dIary~ hAHa tODAy I anD pEARLy tOK aloT on thE PHone.. gUESs i so LoNg nEVer LET OUt alL thE thiNGs i feLt liAO~ sO reLIevE! hAHa WE tOK aBout mY PAst reLatiOnSHIp... aLL thE tHINg she feEL aBOUT mY relatioNshiP anD how i fEEL aBOut thE reLAtioNshiP.. nO mATTer gOOD or bAD oSO learn sOmeTHing... bUT goT ONE thiNG i verI aNGRY~~~~ whY thE freAkin MOh sO baD waN so long deN sCH reOPEn!!! i wan gO sCH~!~!~ fIrst Tat hoR.. aND goT oNE PerSON nEVER rEPLy MY emAIL~~~~~ iDiot!! hAHa buT i wun scOLd hiM waN... i veRI kINd wAN~!~!
HEyO~ dIAry~ hAHa jUz waTch fINsIH vcD~ HAHa i dIE lIAO lA~ hAHa aLL mY fREz LikE stuDyinG liKe mAd~ dEN isH i LikE eVErydAY pLAyINg poOL~ hAiz dIE lIAo LA... sTReSS~ hAHa cONfiRm gO in iTE~ diE liaO la~!! tHEY aLL lAteR aLL gO POlY aND jC dEN i oWNseLf gO iTe~ cONfirM dIE lA~~~ sOBsOB
HAHa aCtUalLy i osO dUnno waD tO wRITE NOW~ buT den jUZ fEEL tAt iF u rEALLI LVOe soMeoNE dEN wHY noT teLL tHE pErsoN noW?
hiyO~ dEar diaRY~ IT uR zHU reN hERE~ hAIz nOE u wAd.. aCtuALLy i fEEl taT sOMetIMe wHEn sOMebOdY come intO uR liFE u WUn fEel ANytHInG BUt deN u wILL beGin tO FEel eMpty whEn thE foLLowINg yEar wHEre U aRe dOing thE saME thINg agAIN aND thE pERsoN tAT wAs wITh yOU thE lASt yEar iSh gONe... hAIz.. lOvE reALLi cANNOT lASt.. so waD lOve 4eVA iSh aLL fAke wAN~! Yes LOve wiLL mAKe u fEEL hAPPy whEN u aRE wITh thE pERsoN bUT dEN u wiLL fEEL eQUaLLy sAd oR rAthER huRt wITh tHE PErsoN lEAve YOur LIfe espEciALLy wHEn u aRE sTILL in LOVe wiTH hiM AS mUch~ MEmoRiES wiLL mAKE u mIss sOMeONE bUT It iS dIFferENt fROm lOve? LOve iSh wHEn u dUn nEed thE pERsoN bY uR sIDe bUt wHEneVer u thiNK oF hiM, u wILL stILL hAve A smILE in ur fACE~! MEmORiES wILL mAke u mIss SOMeone cOZ u ANd him oncE hAD A woNderfuL MOmeNts bUT deN u nOe iSH ImPOsSibLE betweEN u ANd hIM.. sO wHEneVer u tHInk of iT... tHe enDiNG wiLL bE tAt u aRe saD~ wAd iF oNE daY u aRE stRucK IN lOve aND mEmorieS? i Oso duNNo whIch CAt. i aM iN.... i fEEl veRI lOSe tOO... If lOVe iS aS eaSy by saYing i LoVE yoU wiThouT cArING aBOUt anYtHIng TAt gONna be hAPpen..dEN iSn't tAt wONderfUL? cOz it dEN wUN bE sO cOmplicated... i perSOnaLLy thINK tAT iF u rEALLi likE someboDY dEN duN hidE it.. cOz it wILL bE vERi wAsted wHEn bOTh oF u trEasURE thE loVE sO mUch bUT deN cOz lAck oF cOUraGe aND tHE lOve wiLL nEVer hAPpen aGAIN~
HeyO~ diAry hoW aRE u? hAHa i noE u dUnnO hOW tO sPEAk!! hAHa tOday Is a iMpt dAY foR u ..bUT i wuN teLL u whY.. HAHa dUnnO whY tODay I sUddENLy reM tAT gOT ONE niTE i dREamT tAT gAb LEAve mE fOR anOTheR gAL aND nO mAtteR hoW hArd i trY to cALL hiM.. HE iGnORE mE... dEN i woke uP anD toLd hIm mY dReam.. HE saID tAT HE wiLL nEVer LEAve me... BUt dEN guESs NOW u alL oSO NOE thE tRuth...~ HaHA IS noT i bLAme hIm oR wAd.. bUT gUESs IS mY faUlT AS INdiRecTLy mAKe hIM lEAve mE.... hAIz OF mY fUCkINg aTtiTuDE bUT anYway hopE tAT nOW WE cAN stArt aFreSH aND bE fREz.. YEA? bTU deN iSH liKE noW i dAMN fEd uP!!! actUaLLY wAN niCELY tok To hIM anD BE FRez dEN hE sHOW mi ATtITduE PROb!!! daMn FEd uP~!! TOK tO mE likE eNtERtAIN mE liKE tAT~~~~!!! qI sHI wO LE!!!!
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