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Tuesday, December 31, 2002

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waH toDAY iS thE lAst daY oF 2002 .. reALLY caN't bELieve iT! haHA mAybE siNce tODay IS thE laSt daY,i shOuLd 4GEt all thE unpLeAseNT mEmoRies... hAIZ dUnNo wHy i verI sAD aBOut gab tAt thIng..dUnnO whY hE do sUCh thINg taT hUrt hImseLf..i reAllY waNA gIVe uP hOpE lE bUt vINcenT hE toLd mo noT to giVE up lor.. mAYbe waIt 4 a whiLE lo.. hAI yTd i toK to hIM reaLLy soUnded sO stRAngEr to mE...

[ V O N ] |Tuesday, December 31, 2002|

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Wednesday, December 25, 2002

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yestErday gAb brOke up wiTh mE lE~haI i can't reaLLy beLievE It!wHEn i woKe up, i sAw thAt mSg..i reaLLy can't beLievE mY eyEs... bUT guEss ytd i stiLL caN't beliEve thE trUth.. iT thIs is a reAlly a DreaM, i rathER i waKe up noW.. buT eVerytHing sEems sO reAL.. iF i cOuld waKE uP, e 1st thIng i dO will Be hUg hIm one more tIme.buT i thiNk Tat iS iMpoSsibLe...i reaLLy cOuldn't AccePt e fAct..iT wAs sO suddEn...hAi bUT i dIDn't hAte hIS pareNT..(i oSO dunNO y)aNiwae BreaK up mEan bREak up le waD reasOn oso Not imPortaNt.. hE iS ouT of liFE..tiLL ytd nIte whEn noaH cAllEd mE, hE fiNally puLLeD mE oUT oF mY faNtasY.. i sUddEnly REaLise hE wAS goNe... faR fAR awaY~hE hAd fiNally brOke hIs pRomIse aNd tuRn hIs back agAInSt mE...i nOe that wE reaLLy reaLLy can'T bE togETher le..6 mONth hAd onLy bE a dReam...i cAN no longer sTanD besIde hIm as a gIRl hE lOve aNd hE wILL nEver sENt mE hoME tiLL i reaCh mY house lIft.mAybe i waS sO uSelEss thAt tILL afTEr tIS 6 mOntH deN i reaLIse i reaLLi nEed hIm... i dunNNo wHEthER We stILL caN bE fREz..bUT i thInk i reaLLi diFficuLT to bE freZ w thE onE u lOve aND sEe hiM wiTh oTher girL neXt tImE thoU i noE i caN't dO anythiNg...i dUnno hE stiLL lOve mi oR stILL caRe..bUt i guESs iT doEsn't reaLLy mAttER le..i jUz noE Tat frOM ytd onWarDs.. i OnLi cAN caLLed AS gaBriEL buT not deAr... nEver Ever mORe.mY eVer mOst sAfe bIg tRee gOne lE..

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, December 25, 2002|

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Wednesday, December 18, 2002

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think i an gab gonna break le~ think tat the best way out.. maybe i had finally choose to step out of the world most safety room...

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, December 18, 2002|

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Monday, December 16, 2002

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yOZ...holiDAy iS goNna eND vERi sooN ... cHRistMAs is coMing le! i also qUIT mY wORk lE~! hAI acuTally i Am oSo veRI vEXed~ iS eiTher tHE pEoplE arOuNd mI chAnge oR i haVe chANge~! hAIz i oSO duNno lIFE sEEms so bOrinG to mE~ i hAd lOst mY coLouR~soMetIMe whEN a PErosn wanTed TO bE strONg bUT alWAys feLL bAck~ iS reALli � mIseraBLE! hAIz! i oSO dUNno waD to dO! iN frONt of mE thEre Is 2 waYs i dUn eveN noE whicH to chooSE~ yTd nITe i taLk to joYcE aNd pEARly tiLL 4:40am dEN sHE(jOYCE) mAKe mI reAliSE sOMethiNg~ tO measURE hoW mUch u lOve TAt pERson iS not hoW ppL tHINk aBOUt u aND him buT iS hoW uR hEArt fEel..no One wiLL eVEr unDersTanD how mUch u LOVE thE perSon beTteR dEN you~ haI hoPE thE foLlonwinG mY emOtion wILL bE bETter!

[ V O N ] |Monday, December 16, 2002|

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Wednesday, December 11, 2002

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sUck sUx SUx! mY sTUPid fAthER duN leT mI go sPA! fUck hIM!!!! eVErythIng alsO duN LEt mE dO waD he wANT! shiT hIM! no shouLD BE shIT aLL mY parENT tHEy thINK thEY veRI bIG mAH eVErythiNG oSO wANA cAre spoIL mY 2 dAY mOOD!!!!! fUCK!

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, December 11, 2002|

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Monday, December 09, 2002

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yuPiEE! i AM bACK! aiYah todaY mY dEar DEar ilLnESs stiLL noT Yet OK~! thINK he reALli verI siCK! HOW? eRM.. jUZ hoPE tAT hE wiLL be Ok soOn... hAI a.mAThs qualifiCAtiON exAM comING nEarEr aND nEAreR~! i oSO duNNO wHEtHER caN pASs aNOT~! hAI! fREz tO mE oSo duNNO whEthER caN trUst anOT~ hAIz liKe lASt tiMe wheN cINdy IS stILL wiTH viNCenT TAt tIME dEN thEY quarrEL dEN ppL aLSO sAY is ciNdy faULT buT i diDn't sAY mUch bUT noW tuRN ouT tAT thEy aLL aRe bLamIN mi 4 treatIN gAb baDLY~ hAI no oNE uNDersTNAd how I feEL iNsIDE! nVM... jUZ hoPe tAT mY dEar Dear wiLL be OK soON aND i cAN aLWays kEEP mY liFE buSY so dun nEEd tHINK of nONsenSE thiNG! tODAy i weNT to See MY deAR dEAr deN Is liKe spENT 2 hRs 4 luNch breAk thE aUntie goNna kiLL uS soOn! tHInk tmL no lunCH breAK lE~

[ V O N ] |Monday, December 09, 2002|

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Wednesday, December 04, 2002

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whAHa! tOdAy i kANA bLUFF! i weNT tO BRaS bASaH tO sEll aWays mY sTORy bOOK dEN sEE whethER caN eARN sOMe $$ anoT deN iSH liKE no oNe iS actuALLy bUYinG mY bOOKS! sO i wENt bACK to wORK aGAIN~ whAHA SO siAN! aND tIRinG! aIyah tmL isH my dEAr DEAR bDAE! whAHA sO exCITed TO sEE him tML! hOPe i wiLL eNJOY tHE dAY tML! aIyaH today i fiNALLy rEceIVe mY COusiN mAIl! acTuaLLy sHe aLReadY receiVE my mAil liAO buT I jUz fORgoTten tAT i sENt iT tHRu yaHOO dEN i nEVer cHecK! whAHah wHEn i reAd hER mAIL den isH i stILL abIT mISs hER aFter I reAd fiNIsh HEr mAIL! *sOB* hAHa tOday mY boOks oNLi $33 waH so imPREss tAT iS sO chEAP den The reSt of THE $$ caN usE !! sHhh DUn teLL aNIONE!!! bLEAH!

[ V O N ] |Wednesday, December 04, 2002|

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Tuesday, December 03, 2002

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HI! tOday iSh mY seConD dAy oF woRk! wHAha quIte nIce to wOrk laH bUt yTd thiNK can't REally aDapT deN iS like quITE tiRing! wHAHa sO sIan! bUT thiNK worK bETa dEN can sPEnt mY tiMe wisEly~ haHA deN wun tHinK Of hIM! hai thINK reALLi hUrt mY deaR quITE mUch LOR cOz tHINK he nOE tAT i still can't 4Get yQ ! yAH hAIz lAO tiaN arH qiN nI baNg� wO aRH! hAHA ANIWAe iS Like i stiLL dunNO hoW to do My a.mAThs MUch tHINK thE quALifiCAtion TesT abiT can't mAKE it! hAIZ! anIThiNG mUch liaO!

[ V O N ] |Tuesday, December 03, 2002|

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